Well, things are looking a lot better. Despite continuing drama in my life, I've been feeling lately like I have my feet back under me a bit, and it's time to jump back in and own who I am once more :)
Finally, after years of dreaming, I'm in negotiations for one of thrashbear
's handmade cribs. The money's in place, I have somewhere to put it, and Rose is bouncing off the walls with joy over the idea; we just have to work out the details. Excited isn't the word - I got so worked up after my last email with Thrash, that I went to bed padded for the first time in far too long.
I also got to go to the Dark Odyssey kink convention this weekend, where they did have an afternoon area for animals and littles. I went out in 'public' padded and in baby gear (my usericon) for the first time in ages! There were stickers, and play-dough, and bubble blowing, but especially blocks. I can't resist making towers out of blocks (even when they get knocked over all the time)! Of course, the genetic girl littles and kitties got the most attention, but I still networked a little and made a friend or two - I can't complain!
Now, to stay centered, and stay myself, so it's not another four months before I post again!
Vanessa has been feeling pretty repressed again over the last months. There are a lot of reasons, some good some bad, but I think the main one is that my core personality has been a little shaken, confused, and stressed for weeks and weeks, and it's made it next to impossible to relax into my little headspace. This time, I wasn't trying to leave it behind, I had no urge to delete my journal, etc. etc. etc. - I've just not been 100% sure who I was at all for a while.